well after leaving the AN I sat on a friends beach and enjoyed the sun and surf for a while. Members of Ordo have been extremely nice, helpful and supportive before, during and after the issues with the AN. I got my hands on the ordo handbook and started reading and realized that this is exactly what i was trying to make the AN into. It was only natural that i put my app in. I have felt at home from the time i got my schola invite.